Grandpa is on the porch with his pipe, again.
I’m old enough to know this only happens
when he’s thinking of the deepest part of the lake
or if rain is coming
I can’t remember which,
but it doesn’t smell of petrichor
or barrels soaked in bourbon and wine.
Watching smoke rise makes the air look heavy,
it makes my body feel heavier, too,
thick with a hand pressing me down
to deepest part of river mouth,
open and wanting.
Like grandpa, I learn silence while staring
into forests or higher, out beyond the Mesa.
It’s easier to be silent
when every cardinal
is a different rock formation, sandy rippled
bookcliffs to the north, dead red canyons
sit across the west with left palm open,
right hand gripping a chalice of avant-garde wine.